I am struggling tonight. This a hard slog for sure. I'm very depressed tonight as well as kinda angry at the situation. It didn't help that I pulled out some old letters from my W. (I know, I know)
She thinks things have turned a corner, but what does that mean to her? Because on my end nothing has changed. Still no outward signs of affection, no kisses, no hugs, she doesn't even really touch me at all.
I get the analogy of waiting for someone to finish a project. But on the other hand, I know that the squeaky wheel sometimes gets the grease. I know I've hurried projects or things along at work just to get someone to stop asking me about it. LOL.
Thankfully she was too preoccupied by thinking about her day tomorrow to really notice that I was in a state.
However, I was bugged about something and I brought it up to her. Maybe I shouldn't have. I don't know what the rules are, but I wanted to bring it up so it wouldn't stew causing me to get more angry. It really helped to bring it up though.
I always knew I loved my wife deeply. I guess I never realized how deep until I almost lost it.
Thanks for letting me vent!!!
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
