I haven't done everything wrong...

[islander]

Feeling detached but depressed. Maybe that isn't possible. Idk. That is how I feel. I will say that yesterday and today I actually felt pretty good, relatively speaking. I got a new living room set and rearranged a few things. Starting to feel like it is my own place, and u have plans for a lot more. It feels good but depressing also. I am full of contradictions.

It has been a full week since the last time I have spoke to my W and it kills me. But again, I don't have another choice given what I want. My M, W, and family back. I had my D tonight and she was excited about the new furniture, a d it was the first time she saw her room in a month. She liked the changes, but I know she would have rather kept everything the same. I just put her to bed and feel horrible. It is the first time my D has stayed with me in about 6 weeks, prior to that she was staging at my inlaws, next door. Ugh....