Hi Folks,

I haven't published anything here since last August. But, I needed to talk to somebody, even if it was just a computer. My H has been paying me temporary support since last May, to the tune of a grand a month. Today we had a hearing to modify his support.

He needed to establish "ability to pay" or rather inability, and I needed to establish "need." He was successful. The judge reduced his support payments by $150.00 per month. My job ends on March 3rd. We have a final hearing on March 21st, and then it will be over. This has been a long road. I'm just tired, and old, and ready to rest. Don't have much energy to do much anymore. It's been three long, grueling years. H didn't admit to having contact with prostitutes either, which I know he has done. He's keeping that close to the belt, as expected.

I did have the opportunity to ask H if he remembered saying "I'm not going to abandon you." And he said yes. Imagine that! He couldn't recall having contact with prositutes, or where he was on the weekend of his birthday, in October. But he remembered saying something from three years ago.

I wasn't allowed to go further, with that line of questioning, to find out the meaning, or anything like that, becaue the judge stepped in....said H is allowed to change his mind, and it was only a verbal promise, etc., etc.

His attorney dropped some paperwork and he rushed to pick it up for her. He even opened the door for me during our lunch break. (It was a 4-hour hearing). After the hearing was over, I too dropped some papers, near where he and his atty were standing -- about 10 feet away. He didn't even budge. I guess the gentleman's facade only lasted for as long as it needed to. Oh, btw, I didn't have an attorney.

I think I'll go take a nap.

poet