I'm off today and I'm feeling a little down. Never heard back from H. This coming Saturday is H's Birthday. We have never spent one of them apart. So, I'm trying to prepare for it:(
Trying to stay real busy today. Praying.....
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Dixie
Me: 40 H: 39 M: 17 yrs - Together 18 1/2yrs No kids Seperated: May 18, 2006 EA/Poss PA with OW for 6 months prior to leaving. 2nd Bomb dropped: Dec. 23, 2010
Special date are espeacially hurt. What are you doing to prepare for it?
Bomb 8/09. Brief piecing 12/10. D-2/12 Two incredible kids D9,S6 Leading new life! “Success is not to be pursued; it is to be attracted by the person we become."
I think it is really important that you DO NOT contact H for Birthday. He MUST see what it is like without you in it. Keep real busy. I survived Christmas without Kids by convincing myself it was just another day that will pass.... and it did.
Stay positive and Be strong.
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Did your H come back after the the first separation?
Bomb 8/09. Brief piecing 12/10. D-2/12 Two incredible kids D9,S6 Leading new life! “Success is not to be pursued; it is to be attracted by the person we become."
I cleaned the house, washed clothes, organized some, went to a bead place and strung some necklaces. Stopped for lunch...now back home for a bit. Gonna take a nap and watch some mindless TV.
I don't know what to think...It H playing games? He said during phone call on Thursday that he would let me know on Saturday. Then he texted Friday night that he missed me. Then I don't hear anything?
I'm trying to stay positive and not think the worst. But, it feels like he is just playing games with me. He said, he got called into work and that is why he cancelled. I'm starting to think now...that it was a lie.
Just praying now for some peace of heart..
Me: 40 H: 39 M: 17 yrs - Together 18 1/2yrs No kids Seperated: May 18, 2006 EA/Poss PA with OW for 6 months prior to leaving. 2nd Bomb dropped: Dec. 23, 2010
I don't know that he is playing game but is surely doing a temp check.
What does that mean to you?
Simple:
A man will test the waters often to see if he still has the fish on the line. He checked by sending you the text and planning the dinner. Both times you confirmed that the fish was still on the line.
You want to see desperate?
Let go of the line, this is not a game it is GAL without the expectation of getting a reaction. You have been very good at this but jumped at the first sign of interest. Don't!
Thanks 2step....I hit a low today. I've been crying a lot today. Beating myself up...my Coach said the Dinner was a good idea and etc.
It hurts so much to be treated this way. To love someone and to be treated like a piece of trash. It makes no sense...this person once loved me the same and wanted to grown old with me. It's like a death...that person doesnt exsist anymore.
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Dixie
Me: 40 H: 39 M: 17 yrs - Together 18 1/2yrs No kids Seperated: May 18, 2006 EA/Poss PA with OW for 6 months prior to leaving. 2nd Bomb dropped: Dec. 23, 2010
I feel you dixie...I feel like my W is a stranger at this point....like I don't know her anymore. Have faith that the person that loved you the same is in there somewhere...
I agree with 2step...he was doing a temp check. We guys love to do them...just ask my W about our last year and a half together. :p
BITS M: 35 W: 35 T14, M11 D9, S6 ILYBINILY: June 09 Unofficially Separated (long distance): 1/2/11 W came home: 3/17/11 EE: July 2012 Dropped the rope: Oct 2012 Piecing: April 2013 Not piecing: April 2014 Stuck.
