Yeah, I wasn't planning on sending it, and even if I had it would be too late anyway.
My last outburst put her over the edge. Yesterday I had her happy and interested and coming back towards me, this morning she put the divorce papers in the mail and has her heels dug in stronger than ever.
Here's our last messages after my insensitive long-winded preaching to her about actions not words:
WAW:
My actions are sending you the papers what address do you want me to send them to? You said you would do whatever I wanted several times then sign the papers and let go! We still have our friendship which will be strong unless you just can't be for awhile I'll understand!
ME:
I want to end it too. You can send them to me at.
(address)
When can we talk?
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Other than stopping all the pain I'm not even sure what I meant by saying I want to end it, too.
But there it is.
My only concern in the world right now is doing this will prevent me from spending anytime with her, even though she just said if I was there she would be giving us a chance.
Guys I'm lost.
No idea what comes next.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
