Divorce or Hope?

[ninelives]

First and Denver;

Thanks for the input. You guys are both well seasoned in this.

I dont know why I still feel so much love for my wife and want the marriage to work. I cant get over the feeling that she is in a situation that spiralled out of control for her and going by her mental state, doesnt know what she is doing.

Maybe she does and I have my head firmly up my A$$ but I cant give up for some reason. IDK if its because of my ego, cause I want our family back so bad or because I thought we would be married forever.

I too thought first that if my w even once screwed around it would be over in Chicago in a minute but thats not the case.

I dont want to take up with someone new and I certainly dont want to be raising someone elses children.

I am getting on better these days and as I have mentioned, when the weather gets better, I will be back on my bike and travelling around.

My W has Always been mixed up and admits to sabatogeing her own self destructive life. She has always had turmoil growing up and told me that she was not used to having Peace in her life.

I dont know, her dad did die a few years agon and she had so much resentment towards him that went unresolved.

Bottom line I guess is to get on with my life and be there for my boys. Get myself financially stable when the seperation agreement hopefully gets signed this week.

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