Outstanding H, F, F, L, P

[Busting Mode]

Good morning fellow Life Lovers.

Pretty wild ride for me yesterday. Mind all in a panic, emotions wreaking havoc, DBing mistakes spewing out left and right...

Still feeling some slight pain in my tummy this morning, but as I said in my post yesterday I believe the pain was not there to hurt me. It was to make me more aware.

This morning I am in a much better place to speak to my WAW the next time she makes contact. I believe I have learned my lesson about "trying to make her come and love me" and perhaps even more importantly, being willing and able to stand up for myself as well.

Wanted to share this letter with you that I wrote this morning when I got up:




L----,

It would be best if I could tell you what I'm about to say in person, or at least by telephone, but in case I don't get a chance to do that soon, I want to write down some things I have been thinking while they are still fresh on my mind.

The first thing is this whole thing of letting go and letting things happen naturally.

And the second thing is my need to end our current relationship.

I couldn't see it before, but I am able to see it now. I need to let go now for me. Not just for you.

I have realized it's just the right thing to do for both of us, because the path that we were on will never lead either of us to the place we want to be.

Sorry I couldn't fully see and accept it sooner.

I'm telling you this because I know letting go and letting things happen naturally is in harmony with what you want right now as well.

One thing that's for sure is that all things considered, the relationship I have with you is the best I have ever had with anyone, and I believe you feel the same way for yourself.

But I am also thinking of that movie pretty women where she decides she wants it all.

You are right. We both deserve to have it all.

And neither of us can get there without knowing we are being true to ourselves right from the beginning.

So I don't think I'm going to send you this right now - I've been pushing unnaturally hard for way too long.

Instead I'm just going to wait until the next time that you contact me and simply see what happens.

I know in our last conversation I was being pushy and disrespectful, I know I was totally invalidating your feelings and pushing you away from me, but I also know I'm finally getting a handle on that old behavior and I'm becoming a much happier and more confident man because of it.

Meanwhile, I'm going to post this in the Divorce Busting forum where I have found some friends who are helping me
thrive in the face of the challenges that you and I are going through.

Posting this message in a safe environment where I have the support of others will help me live these important lessons I am learning.


I love you, L----

Always, Your Michael