well, before this cycle (my h has asked for a divorce in various levels of intensity-this being the most intense, 4 times) i was stronger and much more independent one of those women who were fine being alone i have a great family, friends and i love my career (which i worked my butt off to get) if i perceived a relationship i had was going under, i could walk away easily walk away... of course this is different we have a history and the most important thing, a gorgeous s (you should see him)
but the begging and and pursuing i've done is just shocking to me
Grr, my wife had often said almost the same thing too. Different circumstances and history obviously, but she was independent, hardworking, full of life, had many many friends she held dear...and whenever she recounts her marriage to me, she said she should've walked away when she saw the signs while we're dating or early in our marriage. Now we have a history and a beautiful son as well, which make things really sad and complicated.