Try to be solution oriented

[Queen_of_Swords]

Whoa, lady hang on there.
Breathe.
You're very upset and anxious that's plain.
Nicely send a note to a mod to get some of your more personal and identifying posts removed if you're afraid of discovery.
No one is not answering because they don't care about your situation or don't want to offer support.
Have you not read a post or two and had to think about what best to say?
Your H will see the email, but not on YOUR time, on HIS.
He will respond in HIS time not on YOURS.
Until then, let it go. You have no power to change the circumstances between you. You can only change YOU right now.

It's hard to let go, I know. You're hanging on to that thread with all your might, but that thread can't support your weight. Fall back, find the hiking rope, pitons and crampons. We're here to belay you. Then perhaps at one point that thread can be integrated into the rope that holds you now.