Hi Nine, my sympathy for what you're going through.
Given what you've said...it's inevitable that your W is on the road for a break of some sort. The weight loss, the mental confusion all point in that direction.

Your choice as I see it, is whether you're going to be around when that happens.

I'm going to have to face that choice too at some point. I think though, in my case my H has got a long way to go and can stay holed up and virtually isolated for quite some time.

All I can do is say I'm sorry you're having a bad day and commiserate with you. Try to get out and do something kind for yourself today. (((Nine)))

BITS
Me-51, WAS-52
Kids 2
M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013
Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice.
Love is a action and choice you make, every day.