Each one of us has a different moment when we finally "let go". No one can tell you what it is, and as I believe you have learned, reconciling that within yourself, is harder than all that leads up to that point.
Thank you, Cat. I agree with this wholeheartedly, and there is no doubt when you reach that point.
There were times I thought I had before, but then realized I was still attached because something H said or did made me spin. I was still aboard the rollercoaster. I'm finally off and getting my land legs back, and it feels good!
Thank you my friend, for being there, and for your well wishes.