The signs are/were there. IMO, it is the consistency of the signs that we MUST see in order to believe they are more than just a moment of clarity.
Each one of us has a different breaking point. Each one of us has a different moment when we finally "let go". No one can tell you what it is, and as I believe you have learned, reconciling that within yourself, is harder than all that leads up to that point.
You are on a good path and no one knows what the future will bring. My hope for you is that it is something WONDERFUL.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
