One of the most maddening things she said last night was that if I was there she would want to work on things and give us another chance, but even though we are legally married, because she has to complete the immigration paperwork she feels that would be dishonest so she is unwilling to bring me down there, and now there is not other way I can get in!
And even MORE infuriating is that she has started listening to her friends her are saying I am just trying to use her even though I have been totally devoted to her for four years and would just as happily have her be with me in Canada.
I don't give a rat's asss where we live! I only want to be with her!
How can she be seeing things that way???
And what the heck am I gonna do now?
Eat all my clever words, I guess.
I miss her sooooooooooooooo much!!
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
