i am doing really bad lately. I get very d. My c is away til next week. i am really afraid of what is going to happen to this world and i feel very alone. I dont have much work right now and find it difficult to get motivated. i cant play tennis because i have bad tendonitis in my elbow. h had his rental property in short sale and it sold but now he is responsible for 200,000 income for it on his taxes. im afraid this will effect my settlement if it comes to that. In the morning i dont want to get up.
I dont know if h is in mlc or if he is a lost cause.
Now he is looking to buy a bentley auto for 75,000. He just bought a 30,000 other car in oct. he is never satisfied. this makes me crazy. how could he not see the economic problems in the world and wake up
His math doesn't add up...of course you know that.
What else do you like to do? You are important and getting up and moving on is important. Even when you don't want to. Do you take your meds .... every day .... and .... on time? It's important.
Self talk. Wake up...and say to yourself "this is the Day that the Lord has made...I will rejoice and be glad in it"....and DO it.
That's what I used. After several months, it became, 'natural'. And helped tremendously.
I would wake up, not wanting to wake up. More than just tired, I know you understand. Force yourself. It really works.
Thinking about you and praying for your.
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001
Hi sg, Thanks for your reply. I miss hearing from you.
Today i went to the monastery and it just so happened that a service was beginning, so that was great. My son went out with h and then they went to mil. i asked if ow was there and son said yea but she stayed in other room with mil.
I called my mother and we went out to eat at a chinese restaurant. I could not believe when we were there this guy and lady came in that i knew from when we owned gym 15 yrs ago. i always suspected my h might have had affair with her too. I pretended i didn't see them when they walked by.This restaurant is not that close to where i live and the odds of that happening are not that high. I don't know why God is punishing me like this.
yea my son is home now. we usually stay home every night son sits in living room and watches science channel or discovery, i sit in sun room watching spiritual programs and tennis. I think there is so much evil in this world and i don't want to be around it. I am really torn if i should file d or not. I am so worried about losing my house if he is racking up debt that i dont know about. Today my cell phone locked up and phone co cant turn it on til tomorrow, so h let me use another cell phone he had.
