I feel as if a great weight has been lifted from me. I've have finally let go and it is freeing.
I deserve more than to be clinging to someone who doesn't want to be with me. I'm worth more than the few crumbs thrown my way that I mistakenly viewed as 'signs'. This is not to say that those types of things are not signs in someone else's sitch. I do know that if H hadn't filed for D, I would still be looking for signs.
I cannot do anything about how he chooses to live his life. That is his choice. God willing, exciting things lie ahead for me!
I realize I had to go through a process to get to the other side. No one knows what lays on the other side. It may be your S, and it may not. Success is not defined about whether your M is restored or not. It's defined by what you make of the time you've been given.
I refuse to spend that time resentful, angry and bitter. I will take the blessings I received during my M and cherish them, nurture them and watch them flourish. That includes not just my children, but my dreams as well.
I did write H a short email. It was not at all the type of letter I was thinking of writing him. That advice did not go unheard. It was sent with no expectations, a few truth darts, and entirely for me.
You were right Punkin, the light is definitely getting brighter and things are becoming clearer.
I will get through this D and my mantra will be "Live and let live." I intend to do just that!
