Shine on you crazy diamond II

[Denver_2010]

Listen FOBD, it could have very well been me writing that last post but for DB. EVERYTHING that you just said, I did with my W as well. Just last night she was telling me about all of the hurt that I have put her through over the past 8 years. It made me tear up and get really emotional as she was saying these things bc I NEVER, EVER meant to hurt her. But I did it too.

So you know this, and you acknowledge it. Now work on what CAUSED you to do this to your W during your M. What do you think FOBD? Why did you do these things?

When you figure that out, you can really start to figure out how to avoid those same behaviors in the future...

This is what you need to focus on RIGHT NOW... And NO, I definitely NOT telling you that you should be giving up on your M. I'm just saying for NOW, work on yourself.

You are a great guy, but just like ME, you f'd up. Focus on fixing THAT.

One other thing that my W said to me last night is REALLY important to what I'm saying here to you and anyone else reading this...

My W first reminded me that we had had problems in the past and that EACH time I promised to change... When she left, she didn't believe that I would actually do anything different than any of these other times. That is why she says that she had finally decided that she was completely DONE...

Now, she wonders why she's considering giving me another chance... The reason? BC the most significant change that she sees in me, according to what she flat out told me last night, is a change in the 'energy' that I project.

I know that that sounds weird, but she is right. I have acknowledged to myself the issues that I have had for a while, but have only tried to cover up or hide in the past. This time IS different, bc I WANT to actually change. BC of this, I feel better about myself... happier about who I am...

This is the 'energy' that she feels coming from me when she is around me.

Work on obtaining this. Your time to shine with and for your W will come FOBD. It's going to take a lot of time, patience, and work though.

But isn't this what the BITS are all about??!?

In the meantime, you give your W the space and time that she needs to HEAL and figure out what she really wants for her life. You have to give this to her right now man... you have no choice. But this does not mean that it is the end of you M.

No D has been filed, so the clock hasn't even begun to tick. .. My sitch has just moved faster than your's. That's all.

Get your head up! Be strong... for your M, for your W, but most importantly, for yourself!!

Now come on!!

BITS
Denver