Really hard time.... III

[what next?]

I didn't... just had to vent here about it to keep myself thinking clear

couple things that i have been thinking about.

1. she was always trying to tell me what stage of grief i was in so that made it harder for me to detach. I kept feeling like if I acted like I had moved on she would think that I had accepted things and that would be the end.

2. it's so much like 2step's coaching from today. I keep feeling like if I let things seem normal I will be risking losing it all. I am slowly coming to terms with the reality that if there is going to be hope for us... I have to let go.