He shut his phone off up at work yesterday. So, I guess no communication til he calls me, if he does. I am so tired, but I went to work today and smiled and acted as if I were ok. I am reading The DR book by Michelle...even though we aren't legally married..I thought we eventually would be. We just fight so much lately...I need to start doing something different..so I emailed him and suggested we just start fresh but pledge no drugs for him no booze for me (not a problem for me anymore but it was) and totally fidelity and respect and committment...we'll see how he responds eventually...he has complained I don't trust him and he is pissed that I want to show each other our cell phone bills..he says he trusts me and I should trust him...I wish that I could, but his past behavior always reminds me that he lied to me straight faced....I think he did try over the past year to prove himself to me and I may have pushed him away by not being able to accept that...but is it wise to act as if you trust someone????
