Too F***in late. No ill will towards you Sandi.

But tonight I did most everything wrong and put pressure on her like crazy.

Too much pressure, I'm afraid. And now almost all my hope is gone.

Perhaps it's just as well.

She really isn't happy and right now there seems nothing I can do to change her mind let alone change her feelings.

First rule was do no harm. DO not pressure the WAS in any way, even at your own discomfort.

I think I had had about as much discomfort as I could stand and so once again tried to force her hand.

F**k.

Done.

I am being the possibility of:

1) Integrity
2) Loving myself completely.
3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.

"It's do-able." What are the actions now?