I agree he has some issues, but he did do well for a year, and my relaspes spurred him onto a relapse...he swears he was not with this ow BUT she had not been on internet on pandora for over two years (she did not have access to his during that time) and suddenly was on pandora radio again...first song she plays...why'd you leave the one you left me for? the very night he did not come home from work....then a bunch of other songs...on all the days he and his computer were missing...then...he comes home tries to make up but is deleting his entire computer and set it so there was no restore point past the day he fixed it and so...what am I supposed to think? He called a girlfriend of mine and told her he was not with ow and has not seen her in almost two years...but...I don't believe this...I do not think he was seeing or being with ow during that time, as we were very happy...but I do think he at least accessed her for drugs...and partied with her and her little circle of drug buddies...he probably did not sleep with her as it appears she has a man now, but he betrayed me by even being near her...this woman was a drain on him..and when he started seeing me she did everything possible to end our relationship. He knows she is a loser and he knows when he is straight he is better than the company he keeps or is when he is high...I sincerely believe he loves me...but I also think he lies to protect himself from my anger perhaps...what he doesn't get is that I would forgive him if I knew he would pledge fidelity, sobriety, and forward motion in our relationship...I love him.
