My Story - He Cheated while I was Pregnant

[AJM80]

Haha - well, the car rides went ok. Ironman, I would expect more iron from you - my kids are pretty good in the car, but D 2.5 has started to yell about being stuck and wanting to walk...I dread the 3's!

This wind was not good, though, we could barely walk around today once we got to Mystic and RI.

"Relationship update" -Friday he called half a doz times. We sent pictures throughout the day and he wrote back saying how cute they were and etc. He called early in the day to let us know he had a meeting and would be out of pocket (not sure why this was important to tell me) for a few hours and wanting to know if we were in RI). We actually did a shorter day trip instead.

Then last night he called again to talk to D. I started her on pics so she could tell her dad about her day....30 second later he cut us off because his mom was calling. Retrospectively, maybe it wasn't his mom, but was OW? Anyway, it was a total 180 on his part - just dropped the poor kid like she didn't matter at all to return the call.

Today we took a longer day trip to RI- pretty much 0 from him all day. I sent a pic or two and let him know where we were in a brief text. (If I am traveling, I usually do that for him and my dad for safety). He's coming to see the kids tomorrow. Hasn't seen them since mon because of a busy work week. I should turn off phone/disconnect till he shows up. I'm annoyed that he's rolling in around 12- these kids nap for 2-3 hrs around 2. But, I am not him and he clearly doesn't think coming early is a priority. Lord help me if he shows up covered in hickey's again. Lol. Lord help him if he lies and tells me he has razor burn again!!

I feel really helpless right now. I want him to crack and badly. I want him to ache for the wife/kids/family/home/money/love he's chucking away. But not in a woe is me, run away and self medicate with sex and isolation way. In a "man-up" "get my [censored] together and fight for what is mine" way.

I have an unfortunate deadline - I'm not renewing mu lease under the current situation, so if things aren't clearer by the end of june/july, the kids and I are moving closer to my parents - 14 hrs by car or half a day in airport/flying/driving.

I feel like I'm writing country songs.

Time to go inside (in drive with calm, sleeping babies in car) and clean house. nothing says "come back to us" like dirty dishes and laundry and toys everywhere!

Men out there, what cracked you and helped you out of the fog?

Women out there, remind me again that men can change back to a better person when they've wandered into lala land? I read Calliope or someone's thread whose H came back and left again a year later and have been terrified ever since. I handled the 1st departure gracefully ( mostly)....

Tera I did friends and family know what was going on in your situation? Did anyone help or hurt by knowing? My immed fam and a few friends know. His parents/sib and a very few others (inc his boss, so he can leave early for visitation) know. He's really avoided telling anyone who matters to him.