Rue, I feel your pain. You are not alone. We have all made mistakes. They are in the past, they cannot be undone. This was like a bullet from a rifle, it cannot be called back.
You were obviously upset. I would have been too. When we act out of anger or fear we are reacting. Often that benefits who or what is antagonizing us. Take a deep breath, detach from the negative emotions of this, find your center, plan your next few steps and possible outcomes, evaluate and adjust. These are all fluid situations. There is no one solution that will fit them all. IMO you did not ruin anything, your H had to have been expecting it on some level.
Bursting Mode is right the best we can do is evaluate, learn and try not to repeat.
Your kids have given you something to work on you can find strength in. Being strong is a good place to be. It always helps to find an anchor point to work from.
Please do not let this stop you
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill
