thanks 2step
i appreciate that

my update:
he is not going away today
has nothing to do with me tho'. his brother (who was driving) wanted to stay an extra day

this morning he said he is going to stay somewhere else tonight (he wanted to last night, but since i was going out he stayed at our home with s)

i didn't respond except to say that since i thought he and s wouldn't be home i made some plans

he told me we would work that out, but he was still staying somewhere else

he and s just went to breakfast, while s was getting dressed we sat at table and had a good convo about his friends that i was with last night

nothing good, nothing bad....i'm just trying to keep positive, and not talk about r

its getting easier

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