We have been together about two years, living together about a year and a half. He saw an ow for a while in beginning every time we fought..he does not respect her and trash talks her to me...he spent a year trying to show me that he was done with her..he uses drugs when he is with her...he was clean for a year..trying to show me he wanted us..I still had issues about it and was drinking off and on..I am now sober..when I drank we fought about past...we had another fight recently and instead of coming home..he went to a hotel...I have evidence that suggests he was with her..it's pretty strong..he denies all...we have been fighting while he is away at work and he has gone dark..he had come home and was trying to stay home but had not moved his things back in...he will not respond to messages or texts..is deleting them without even listening or reading them he has told a mutual friend...I am stopping myself from contacting him now..I think he is going to take his relapse to a new level and am afraid for him...but I am staying sober..I love him and I know he used to love me...I think he has decided not to love me anymore..
