PIB, Something I read yesterday (after big R talk with H... sigh) was about commitment. My H said to me, what if I do this again?
Well, ask yourself "will my children ever starve to death?" Of course, you say NO. And you have no doubts. No doubts at all. Why? Because you are absolutely committed to make that happen... regardless of circumstances, timing, drunkeness, whatever. YOU are COMMITTED. So, whatever it is that is bugging you, be committed to NOT letting it ever have the power and control over you that it has had in the past, and still has today. BE committed. Anyway, just my two cents.
Happy Birthday!
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.