Ok, needing some help. Actually, I'm surprised at how calm I am. He even commented that I must have read in a book somewhere that I should be calm, that I wasn't crying or pleading!?!
H today said we need to move forward with filing. I asked if there was any chance we could try to R. In his mind, not much. MC? No, why do something you could read in a book. He's not sure he would be willing to try anything I suggest.
I left a message with office to try for an emergency coaching session - I just had one this afternoon! Oh well, so life goes.
I know it doesn't have to happen right now, but he is off today and tomorrow, and then he works the next 6 days, on a opposite shift from mine. Even if we could talk be fore he goes to work, I wouldn't want to upset him before leaves for work. His job needs his undivided attention.
So, I'm looking for advice on where to go from here. Do I take the seven steps, which he's already seen, and go from there? I'm not sure if the OW is pushing him for this or what. I think it's partly due to me asking him to pay his share of the expenses this month. He said he can't pay half of "mine" and his. Mine? His name is on this mortgage too!
Funny, but as I was talking to him, I thought that however this goes, I'll be all right. There are too many things I see in him right now that bother me. But he still doesn't seem to be himself. He even said, why would you want to be married to me? Why wouldn't you find someone to make you happy?
I have to go back to the hospital to make arrangements for my mom. As my sister said, he drops this on you while your mom is lying in a hospital?
