Better Days ARE Coming For All of Us...

[Firstlove]

Lostinscared

Lis

Thanks for the well wishes, but it does not look like my W is going to go to the dinner party with me to meet our old friends that have come to town after we have not seen them for 26 years - this is such a sad thing for me but it is also my reality. There is a 99.9999999999999999 % probability here that there are only two possible answers. The first and most probable one is that I will just not ever hear back from her at all, its like I never asked the question. The second more unlikely one is that she will actually respond saying that she has thought about the invitation and decided that she will not attend and for me to give our friends her best. In either case I will come up with some fabrication that she is out of town on a business trip and could not come to dinner - something like that as I do not want to ruin the evening by telling them what BS we are dealing with in our life. The outcome will however be the same, me off having dinner with them by myself.

The other 0.0000000000000000001% chance is that she would actually agree to go and spend a pleasant evening with friends with me. I believe I will have better luck waiting for the proverbial snowball in H vs. her choosing to join me for dinner.

Alas such is life. I am seriously pondering how long I must do this DB without even one shred of light coming from the end of the cheeseless tunnel - I am doing everything my DB coach tells me to do, doing everything I am reading in every single book on marriage reconciliation, including the DB books, 180s and all - and literally nothing is making any difference to the W - she is determined to not be in my life and to do absolutely zero towards any kind of reconciliation - goes weeks without even one contact or one word. So perhaps I am just inviting myself to my own pity party here, but I must say - the question is constantly on my mind- how long - how long - how long must one wait on the other who has zero interest in a future - how long.