thanks bolt no beach, just desert although we are not to close to one our home is on a lake though, and it's very calming skies are grey here as well i need to go read your new thread thanks for your prayers
lis, thank you for asking a hard 2 days just got to the west coast last night h was already here (at our 2nd home) before i left yesterday, we got some very bad news about my dad he is already infirm, mostly paralyzed from a massive stroke some 10 years ago now he has something else to deal with, that i don't want to write (don't wanna say the word) but it is not good h was great on the phone, but when i got here he did not ask about dad or how i was doing proceeded to tell me that he was going to take s up north for a few days to see his dad really?? i thought if i were just your friend, would you not even think that i might not like to be alone at a time like this but i kept my cool and said yes, that's fine this is just how he is maybe it seems needy, i don't know, but i'm a bit of a mess right now and rambling around this big house on my own will even be more depressing i just feel like he could be a bit more sensitive at this time even just saying..."do you want to come with us" or do you want to keep s with you i dont know maybe he is doing what he thinks is best for our sitch or maybe, like usual, he is just not thinking anyway, don't want to be in this funk tonight will be sleepless again and i'm sure i will see you all on the board in the wee hours hope everyone is ok today i really do
I'm sorry to hear that you are sad grr. And I really hate to hear about your dad.
Try to hang in there. I know that it is hard. You will get through this.... all of it.
My thoughts are with you today.
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thanks denver - that means so much and you are right if there is one thing i am it's my father's daughter he was a decorated ww11 hero at 17 twice he has been through alot alot more than i ever will and i know i have much of him in me thanks again
Oh God, grr... I am so sorry!!! I am just so sorry.
Your H is an a$$. (sorry, not nice, but that mama bear thing is coming out again) You're not being sensitive, you are being human and I agree that it isn't too much for someone to know that it is probably not good for you to be alone.
I am so sorry. Grr, any chance of getting some help for the sleep? I told you guys about my nightmares and I got some anti-anxiety pills and they really helped me a lot. I still have nightmares, but not all the time. You really need to get some sleep, sweetie. A lot of the people on this board do.
Dear grr, My sympathy darlin'. It's really crappy when the people you thought you could count on to lend you support, face adversity with and be there to comfort you don't.
The good news is...we can.
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lis and scylla thank you both so much that means everything
he is an a$$, and i should know after 18 years with him that i can't really count on him but do i still want to save this? i think so i will say, that he has been great with my parents when he is around, he will sit with my dad and engage him i can't take that away from him but i really need him right now, and he is just not there i mean, you would not even treat your friend this way i thank you all for being here for me small db tonight he asked if i wanted to have dinner with him, s, and a few friends i declined and ended up going out with my friends instead my s told me as i left "mom you look hot" - denver that was for you, but it is true ended up going to hear some live music the venue was full of his old time musician buddies from his local "scene" was sort of weird as everyone kept asking about him hope everyone had a good day
