Ehhh... maybe you need to find some other activities besides playing poker for GAL. Didn't you play poker all of the time when you were M'd? What is different now?

Your 180's are for you Next. Stop focusing on whether or not your W will or won't see them. What things in your life, other than the sitch with your M, would you change? Start changing them.

Both of these things, a real GAL and some real 180s, will help you get out of the depressed funk.

I think that you are too focused on your W right now and not enough on yourself. JMO.

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Denver

M 43
X 38
T 13
W moves out of home 11/2010
Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012
I request divorce 5/2012
W moves home 6/2012
Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015
I leave 3/2016
process of divorce