I still want to make this work

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A new day and a fresh mind. I feel each day I am getting closer to the mind set I need to be in. I was thinking about it on the way to work this morning. I feel good about myself! I am proud of what I am doing. I have found a strength I didn't know I had.

Now for the difficult part of what I thought about this morning. I know I need to continue to better myself. The part that makes it so hard is the things I want to change are addiction. Smoking and drinking. The drinking I have controlled pretty well lately. Definitely not where I was, but also not where I want to be. The smoking is going to be very diffcult right now. It has been a huge crutch through this. As a matter of fact, I think my smoking has doubled since this all started.

I know this needs to be my next move to be the person I want to be, unfortunately, it is going to be extremely difficult.