Not Sure Which Way to Go

[downandoutintn]

Well I just had a slip up. I had a dream last night that she told me that OM asked her to marry her and she said yes.

I couldn't fight the urge to ask if she had been going to the OM house. It has been driving me nuts and then this dream pushed me over the edge.

We pretty much haven't talked since we had to go to court.

Well I asked her over text and she said she hasnt been over to his house or out on a date or anything like that with him.

I didn't tell her I was sorry but told her I didn't want to bother her with it but the dream was too much to hold back and that she should understand. (she always had dreams about me cheating on her) She seemed cool once I said that and I told her I hope she has a good rest of the day. She said "U2 :)"

Hopefully I can get some response.

I know I shouldn't have asked her about OM but I am only human and I know it was a mistake but I feel like this time I was able to get an answer without making her angry. A rarity or maybe a small step? It seems like this maybe a small step.

When I don't have the kids, I have been going out with friends and doing some shopping. Also, I have been making sure I am keeping my appearance taken care of. Also, I really haven't been contacting her unless it is about the kids. (minus this set back.)

Is there anyone else, that during this process, you didn't feel like you had anything to talk about with your S? It is really like I don't even know my W anymore.