Lost, hurt and scared ...

[MeMyselfandI]

OK, my D called back after she got home from the movie. Brief conversation, she was distant. This is very painful. After I hung up with her, S called. He didn't sound great and I had spoken to him already three times so I asked him what was up. He said, just hang on I have to go to my room to talk to you. When he got in there, he started crying really hard. He started telling me how mad he was at his sister, she's doing all these things with OW, (like the movies, etc.) and whenever all of them are there, he never gets to have any fun and he feels really left out. He goes on to say he hates OW and that H is always mean to him when she is around. He gave an example like, he said, "you know Mommy, like sometimes when I'm on the phone and I'll walk around in circles when I'm talking - well Daddy will yell at me to sit on the couch and sit still when OW is there." I try to comfort him and tell him I wish he was with me so I could and he immediately asks where I am and says he really wants to be with me right now. Then he stumbles a little on his words and stops crying and says, "I have something in my eye." I quickly realize that H has just walked into his room and he is trying to cover up that he has been crying. I tell him that I love him very much and wished this was easier for him. I also told him, (because I'm out of town for the weekend), that he can call me anytime that he needs to. I can't wait till Sunday when they come back to my house. He needs his Mom so much right now.

It breaks my heart to have him go through this. Here's the three of them, carrying on like life is grand and my poor little guy is just being torn apart.