Lost, hurt and scared ...

[MeMyselfandI]

Having a hard time right now ... really hard. So, to update. I did respond to H regarding S and just basically said he was struggling right now and we focussed on what I can do to make things easier for him.

On to D. I haven't really spoken to her in days ... it's like she's completely detached from me. H & I have received another email from her teacher saying that D has 4 outstanding assignments and will be getting incompletes on her mid term report if she doesn't get them done. To top it off, I sent H a text last night to get the kids to turn their cells on so I could call them and he writes back saying that S is finishing his book report and D is "very grounded" 'cause she has a book report due in 2 days and hasn't even read one page of her book. I respond saying that she told me two weeks ago that she was almost done her book. H responds saying it's the first he's heard of it and there will be no more facebook for her.

Later on I get another text from him saying "Sorry Full, they finished up and went to bed. I can ask them to call you in the morning. I got distracted with bedtime and forgot."

OK, I could scream. First of all, the book report project has been posted on their classes website page for weeks. I always check that page as a responsible parent, to make sure they are working on their stuff. Second of all, Facebook is not her only issue obviously. Being at the hockey rink till 11:30 on a school night probably isn't something helpful either.

I did not say anything though ... I can't control how he parents the kids and I'm not quite sure how to put this across quite yet without completely slamming his parenting abilities.

On to tonight. I called my S earlier and spoke with him quite a bit. D didn't have time to talk right then 'cause she was working on her homework. So, I was out for most of the night and when I got home, I called S again to see if I could talk to his sister yet. He tells me she's not home, just him and H as D is at the movie theatre with OW and her friend watching. It was like someone put a knife right through my heart! They are trying so hard to integrate her into their lives and D is eating it up like candy and I'm left out in the cold. It hurts, it hurts so much and I just don't know how to handle it. It's eating me up inside, bit by bit, piece by piece. As it sit here, the tears make it hard to even type. Not only have I lost the family I once knew, but it seems I am now losing my D too and I don't think I can deal with that.