S, much of what you wrote of your marriage and your h, I could have written about mine. But here's what I know.
I know now that there were things in my marriage that needed tending to. I know now that I could have done things differently. I know now that I was a loyal wife and friend. I know that I loved my h deeply and truly. I know now that I did the best I could with the tools I had at the time. I know now that if I knew better, I would have done better. I know now that this is a journey he was meant to go on and so was I. I know now that I am a good person, a loyal friend, a good mother.
I see the kind of person you are. While you should take ownership of the things in your marriage that were yours, please remember that you did not do anything with intent to hurt your h or your marriage and did the best you could at the time.
You will be ok, my friend. You have grown so much. You are a special lady. So, hold your memories close to your heart and keep moving forward on your journey.
