Thanks guys, no offense taken Denver. It's just such a struggle everyday, and I feel like I am doing my best. I still make mistakes, but obviously there is no perfect approach to all of this...

I just want to take the time I have to really fix myself, and I in turn hope that my W is able to see this and eventually come around. I love her, I fear I always will so I have no thought of giving up on me or giving on her.

I realize what you guys are saying, the sitch itself is toxic and I agree with that. I just was trying to say that the day-to-day is ok, and I think is still the best scenario for the kids. Also, like I said I'm being somewhat selfish in staying so I can be with my girls - because this isn't my choice!!

I'm going to keep battling...with myself. I want to be the person I should have been! FOR ME!!

SIC

Me - 34
W - 33
M - 8 years
T - 15 years
D7, D5, D2
Bomb Nov 10/2010 "I'm not happy and INILWY"
W Staying for the kids Mar 13/2011