please help on what i need to do.

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2Step: You are right on the mark: Yup, i am definitely bad in doing my 180's. Yea for one day(or evening) i am quite pumped up and ready to just take things on and am very positive. The next day i am completely down. I have always been the type to imagine a lot of bad scenarios in my head and worry about them. Yea, one of my goal has been to do some meditation(i need to quiet my mind down). I just feel so guilty in GAL'ing. I feel that i've messed up my marriage and now i am trying to enjoy myself. I know, very crazy thinking..I just need to stop that. Thanks so much for your feedback!