As the Bolt Turns

[Bolt]

and once again, that proves correct.

I did that all day yesterday. I didn't call or text and only responded when she texted me.

I did listen to her and bought a book that she really wanted. It was funny because I didn't want to just hang around when she got home, so I kinda hid downstairs watching the Daily Show (LOVE it). She kept coming downstairs to show me things or talk to me.

It was very funny because I kept the convos short BUT I did pause the tv each time to show her my interest. On her way upstairs she said she was excited to get her new book. I just smiled.

Then I heard her scream upstairs - I knew what happened. See, I put the book with a red bow on it under her pillow. She yelled from upstairs - Thank you thank you!!

I just simply smiled and said you're welcome (LIS - I did kinda take your advice and took the note "Always thinking of you" off it)

Well, that paid dividends. I crashed early - haven't been sleeping too well but got my emotional bucket filled just by her keep coming downstairs to talk about nothing.

The two Ds came into our bed and W kicked them out around 3am. I felt this hand on me and thought it was one of the Ds. It was the W. She rolled over and put her arm around me. I was wide awake and couldn't sleep but didn't want to leave her arms.

BUT after a while I did. I went downstairs to watch a little tube and went back to sleep. I went back upstairs around 5am-ish. She woke up and asked why I slept downstairs. I told her that I couldn't fall back to sleep (to which she apologized to waking me up) and I didn't want to turn the TV on in the bedroom - long story but I have a habit of turning some movie on that puts me to sleep but keeps her up. I didn't want to do that to her so I went downstairs.

She then ROLLS over and puts a huge hug on me. After a while we rolled back over into a very interesting position that I thought for SURE she would not like. We stayed there for a good 15 minutes. Needless to say, little Bolt was wondering what was going on BUT nothing sexual at all. I loved being that close to her. She even played with my hair a little...

Space baby...that's all it takes. I'm also not bringing up a WORD about the R right now. Maybe part of it is just going through and letting it happen until we are both ready (Sounds like a lot of advice I'm getting here, no??)

Anyway...today's a much better day than yesterday but I'm not stopping what I'm doing.

Thanks to all the BITS for the support - I desperately want to return the favor.

OH and LIS - that book is GREAT! I think it's the next thing to do whenever she is ready. It is telling me exactly what to do and what she really means. I can see how, if I played my cards just a little differently in our last convo, the outcome could have been much different. Thanks a TON

(for those of you wondering, it's called Hold Me Tight by Dr. Sue Johnson)

lastly - 2step - correct-a-mundo. I had zero expectations and look what happened. It's so funny how that works. Literally when that hand was on my chest, I thought it was weird that my daughter did that. Then I realized it was my W. Too funny