Today i am feeling totally down...Just slept for 2 hours last night and have a full day of work today
I really hate this up and down swings of my emotions. I think the impending date of the divorce being finalized and the fact that we have to sell our house off(we put in a lot of effort on that house) is beginning to hit me big time.
I'd love to get your feedback on this one. I am practicing going dark since Jan-2011. The only times we have conversations when my W calls up to discuss the divorce details. She's called twice to tell me that my daughter wanted to talk to me.
I dont call her to talk to my daughter because i know i am emotionally not yet there. But oddly even she does not call at all. Yup, she is staying with her family (that includes a whole bunch of aunts, uncles and other relatives). So i am wondering if the reason is because she does not feel as lonely as i do. I am trying to work on my issues, but sometimes i look forward to her calling. When she does'nt, i wonder if she has just moved on and does not even care.
BITS M 38 W 36 D 7 Married 15 yrs W left for 6 months in 2009 W Filed for D 01/03/11 piecing now...