Well, I went to bible study/prayer meeting last night. I'm still in a situation where I'm going to church and fellowshiping with people yet don't really believe what they seem to believe. It bugs me. I'm way to liberal in my theology for most of the churches I visit. I don't believe you need to be "saved" to go to "Heaven", I don't believe in Hell, I believe we should be spending our time looking at ways to express the love that Jesus showed rather than evangelizing and winning souls. I'm not sure Homosexuality is a "sin". I don't give a rats ass about whether you can lose your salvation or not (big discussion in my last church)! I believe the bible is inspired, not inerant. It was written by individuals trying to explain their journey towards finding and experiencing God, it ain't a rule book! I don't even believe Jesus died for our sins...I have other theories.So, where the heck do you go with beliefs like this (and don't say Hell...even if you're thinking it! ;)) The Pastor asked me if I was interested in joining their church and I said "not at this time" I find the preaching and bible study intellectually stimulating but I hold back from joining a church if there are numbers of beliefs held that I just don't subscribe to. I find most of my friends who go to church and believe faith is important to hteir lives have similar situations but they chosse to just smile and wave...don't rock the boat. Why should we need to walk on eggshells and fake that we beleive things we don't in order to be part of a spiritual community? Oh well, just sounding off. Maybe I'll always be a spirit without a real home.
