Just got caught up on your thread. I'm so sorry that your are going through all this too. I'm adding you to prayer list! But, LIS and others are correct. You are the only one that can decide what is a deal breaker and if you want to keep fighting.
It's clear to me that your LOVE your H and want your family to stay intact. Your H smoking dope and all the other stuff. You just can't think about all that stuff right now. If you want to try and save your marriage you have to work on finding peace w/all the old hurt FIRST.
Take it from the former QUEEN of resentment and anger. If you don't release that old pain, you can never do the work that needs to be done on YOU.
We all get lost in this mess Grr. So, don't give up! Your sweet S deserves his wonderful Mommie in all her glory to raise and love him.
I'm praying for you!
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Dixie "Life is Short, Pray Hard"
Me: 40 H: 39 M: 17 yrs - Together 18 1/2yrs No kids Seperated: May 18, 2006 EA/Poss PA with OW for 6 months prior to leaving. 2nd Bomb dropped: Dec. 23, 2010
