I wrote my h a letter when I was in the thick of all this. And I rewrote it, changed it and added to it over many months. Everytime I was angry or sad. But I didnt send it.
Here's why. I knew that though I said it was for closure, but that in some small recess in my brain, I was hoping for a reaction. And I knew he wasn't going to hear it. And if he wasnt going to hear it, what was the point?
So, I waited til I was really and truly detached. I waited until I was healed and strong. And I waited until I saw my h peek out a bit. I knew that I wasnt going to have closure until I knew that he heard me.
S, I know that there are so many things you want to say to him. But you will know when the time is right. You will not have to ask. You will just know.
If you do it now, expect no response or an angry one. And I dont think, given what you are dealing with now, that you need to add to your stress.
I think it's best if you wait a bit. You will know. I promise.
