Well my crappy day has gone from crappy to just plain weird. A whole new can of worms has opened up concerning my H. Oh what a tangled web he has been weaving. There is absolutely no truth that can come out of his mouth. So firstly, where I got my information from was very unexpected. I wasn’t snooping or anything like that. It was from an old friend who contacted me to see how I was doing. Since H and I were split up for the last 3 months...what???? 3 months???? Since H has been gone and started dated, she was wondering how things were going for me? I think MY head has been in a fog. At first I was a little dumbfounded. Then I started thinking...holy do things make sense now. All the behaviour, all the gut feelings, all the vagueness to his whereabouts, the guilty look on his face. I have been sooooo stupid. I should have gone with my first instinct that Sunday afternoon and stayed home. I just wanted so bad to hear that he still wanted me.

So here I sit. Nasty feeling in my stomach is gone. Feeling not so crappy anymore. Actually had a laugh or two at myself about the whole thing. I am not even stressing about his attempted return (which should happen in the next week or so) I know that for right now and for the next few months I will have to go completely dark. With the exception of kids. But I managed to go 2 weeks without seeing him face to face, I can go longer.

Me:35, 2 kids from PR
H: 37, 2 kids with me
T: 15 years
M: 8 years in Feb.
Second walk out: 14-01-2011
H had PA: 2007