Don't get too excited for me! grr was referring to the Zen thread regarding our new shoes.
I'm not a talker, Denver. Never have been. I actually like listening to people's stories. I have an affinity for old people because they have the best stories. I actually like looking at other people's photos. Me not being a talker, though, has caused big enough issues because when things went South, my H always assumed the worst. So, I HAVE to work on that.
Ironman, thanks for the support and the thoughts. About 2 or 3 pages back, I listed the things that I needed to work on. It's not a short list, unfortunately. The biggest thing right now is that I do need to open up more.
I do understand what you are saying about control. I just don't want it. I want my old relationship back. But, I guess, that is going to take a lot of work before that happens. He definitely is walking around like a dog with his tail between his legs. If you ask him right now, EVERYTHING is his fault. That is just utterly ridiculous. Of course, everything is not his fault.
I'm not sure what is going on, to tell you the truth. Maybe he stopped talking to his buddies who convinced him that I was defective. Yeah, the same buddies who loved me for 12 years, turned me into the devil to help him justify whatever the heck was going on in his head. What happens when they convince him again? Why did they do it in the first place? I guess, like Michelle warned me, I need to be wary of this change of heart.
I so hate the confusion. But I do love my new shoes!
