Jackie...just posted on your thread..thanks for checking in..I know the wanting thing..I know I want my m to survive..but I am lost at what to do next..since he said I need to do the "legal thing", I have not made many calls to him..invited him over or any of that..is that dbing? Probably not..but I don't want to force stuff on him..make him feel like I am trying to hold on...I took off my rings yesterday..I don't "feel " married anymore..got myself a beautiful sapphire with diamonds to replace it..sat at church dinner tonight with h, and I almost tried to hide it...would he notice..don't know..he seems to be avoiding me..we seem to be drifting even further apart..not much ro say when we do see each other...I sound like I am giving up..maybe it is time to..don't know.
