Happy New Year...so many ups and downs for all of us this past year..let's hope for calmer days ahead...
I have been doing so much thinking...that the time maybe has come to let my h go.....to talk to him about proceededing with d if that is what he wants.....I have been thinking about where I could move..as I don't want to stay in the house that we built our lives and raised our kids..I mentioned this to him awhile back..that I did not think I wanted to stay here..he asked why, I did not say the whole reason, but suspect he could figure it out.
I was just reading my horoscope and some tarot cards..and they said to not make rash deccisions right now as I am tired and feel like I have been pulled too thin...WOW...while I don't really believe these tings, they seemed to fit how I feel. I try to hash over last conversation with h about me not wanting d, and he did not say for sure that that is what he realy wants..we just don't talk about anything..I have done a better job of detaching, and it bothers me that I am feeling better about letting go..not having to talk to him, call him, see him...I am tired..so will see what developes over the coming weeks..
The real truth is I don't want to lose this m, but I have run out of things to do except to be myself..and act as if..
