Piecing is almost harder than before...

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I agree with your last line, Harrier. I know my W is scared, and I understand why.

It's funny. When we were separated, the reversal came right after I finally (after many attempts) feel like I detached. Like I really accepted that it was over, took of my ring, told W I accepted it, told her we should divide finances, and REALLY felt it. 48 hours later, she emails me that she wants to try again.

I come home and screw it up within three weeks by kissing her (that was back in Nov). Dec back on track and she's kissing me lightly etc, but I think I pushed (again) too much and it slowed back to cheeks in Jan and then I give her that card for V-day. Woooooaaa back off again. She keeps crawling and every time she starts to crawl, I run or at least walk and she crawls backwards. It's that proverbial kitten peaking out from behind the couch thing. How stupid can I be? I've got to crawl right along with her. I can do this.

I'm also to a point now where I won't accept being together no matter what. Screw eggshells. I'm done with that. I will work hard, very hard, but she will have to participate in this process. I won't do it all.