Do you ever have one of those days when you wake up on the really wrong end of the emotional roller coaster ride? I am having that day !
Yesterday, I was with my XW at our kid's school. Each one of my 2 kids did a half an hour presentation to us on their school projects. As I sat there it felt like I was in the Twilight Zone. Here we were 2 parents together with our children yet she had no connection to me at all. My XW sat there drinking tea from a travel mug with a photo of my 2 kids and their 2 dogs. Just seeing that was like getting a knife in my heart.
At the end of my 6 year old son's presentation I got up. My XW started to read her emails on her phone (that is so upsetting to me). I said bye to her but she was too focussed on her emails. I started to walk away holding my son's hand and my X said bye.
I see my kids tonight and then they leave for a 2 week trip with my X to Africa. A trip I have done with her a few times. A trip that I always dreamed of doing with her and our kids.
Today I am heartbroken. How could I have a marriage and a family with this person and then one day she just got up and left. I honestly thought she would start to snap out of her fog but as time slips by it appears that that is never going to happen.
Just having a really bad day today.
Me/W: 46/36 D7.6/S6 T/M: 7.5/6.5 Bomb 12/05/07 D final: 03/03/09
