KAW..for some reason I could not reply to your post just now..thank you for the greetings..and caring!! How were things with your family? Sounds like CAW is coming around..slowly..thats good news, the waiting and patience is all worth it.
My h came over for Christmas, I really did not think this year he would give me anything..after he came in I looked under tree and saw nothing..of course my heart was a little let down, but I knew I had to accept that he is trying to break away. Then as my dd gave us our gifts there was a tiny box...with a beautiful silver necklace with hearts on it(I had spotted it shopping with dd, so I am sure she actually went and got it for him)..but it made me almost cry..I looked at h and said "you got this for me?", he just laughed and said "I didn't do any shopping"..I put it on and have not taken it off...
Do I still believe in miracles..do I still hold onto hope..you bet......although I think h still beleives d is our only way to "get on" with our lives.
I did have an awful confrontation with my sister on Tues..the things she said about me, and h were almost unfogivable...she says the whole community is talking about what he has "done" to me LOL....I tried to convince her there was no one else for him..of course you know when people talk. that's all someone can believe. I was not going to tell h about phone call, but dd had told him I had this call, so when he called and asked aboout it, I spilled it all out..told him sister said he has a girlfriend..that she and others had seen him with someone..he laughed and said "I wonder which one they saw me with"..I was kinda shocked and said with out thinking"Is there more than one" Then I said "I am just kidding"..I know the women he has gone out to lunch or for a drink..but you see people are so blinded that they think a s person is having an a just because they are out with the opposite sex, and I am so sick of it......the sad thing is between the call with my sister and talking to h, I was almost convinced... again..that he was probably lieing to me, and I really am blind to the whole game...I was have contemplating calling him and telling him to just get the damn d filed..people have a way of playing with your emotions and mind.
So...I am able to better handle these past feelings of doubt....
Hope everyone here can find peace in their hearts for the new year ahead...we are all stronger for what we have endured this past year. I know I would not be where I am today had it not been for all the friends here.
