W was down in a deep depression yesterday to the point she broke down and cried in front of her boss and asked if she could work from home. I feel horrible that she is so down but again, her journey. Despite this, I was very supportive of her through the day through many emails, texts and finally seeing her after work.

I also took a second look at an apartment I like. Found out that a 6 month lease is $100 more a month. 12 month leases have a $0 deposit and free first month, so now I'm conflicted what to do. Ultimately I don't want to move out, but W and her C think it will give her time to figure things out for herself. I also agree in one way: W feels she has to leave the house when I have the boys over on T/Th/alt Sat. I don't want her to feel that she has to escape her own house.

Some mornings, like right now, it hits me a little harder than others. I need to distract myself, but work is very slow at the moment so it's hard. Maybe I shouldn't be reading so many DB posts smile

I've got a four day weekend coming up. Plans on Friday, but nothing else the rest of the weekend. I tend to like to get away on road trips, W is encouraging me to go. She said she may go out of town herself, she hasn't decided. Maybe getting away will clear my head a little.

Me 43 W 38
M 5 T 7
SD20
S15, S13 with 1st W
ILYBNILWY June 2010
Separation/Bomb July 2010
Divorce Feb 8, 2011