When I let go of what I'm,I become what I might B

[Firstlove]

Grr

I know the wake-up calls in the middle of the night as well here. It is getting better as time goes on and my outlook is more positive -but there have been many many nights when I would wake up at 2:00 AM - look at the clock and just go "oh great - another sleepless night - when will this ever end". I have had what seems like billions of sleepless nights in my marriage, cannot tell you the number of times I woke up from my W snoring and coughing - I had to get up and either sleep in the guest room or on the sofa - I bet its a 3,000 times and I am not kidding.

This is different though, you wake up lost and scared in the middle of the night in an empty bed, not knowing where to turn or what the next day will bring. My only hope is in God and His plan for my life, and trusting that He has a plan for me to prosper and a future with hope. Many nights I just grab my bible at the side of the bed and read the Psalms and God's promise to us. That is the only way my soul can rest and my body can sleep - is resting in Him and not in my sitch.